Confusion of Clairity
I’ll be the first to admit that quite often I get in my own way. In my determined search for new ways to become more grounded and more connected with my intuition, I sometimes become too focused on making an outcome instead of listening and letting it happen. Though often the outcome is not the picture perfect one I have in mind, it all still manages to positively turn out the way it should no matter how many times I trip over myself to get there.
For two weeks, I kept thinking of a friend/client that I really wanted to connect with but never found the right moment. This weekend while out camping for meditation and clairity, I thought of her more often than not as she was just a few miles away, but somehow distraction kept me from listening to my inner voice that told me she needed me. My inner critic rebuffs the voice as a vain attempt at importance.
Who could need me?
An image of a hand painted pot filled with wheat grass and a paper flower framing a little blond girl as well as a big laminated collage of red images decorating a mother’s day poem by her sister give gentle reprimand to the critic. I look forward to coming home and preparing the house for the big family Mother’s Day dinner later that afternoon.
Perhaps distraction WAS part of the plan.
Unpacking camping gear and juggling food and house prep, I settle down a moment to check e-mail and there it was, an SOS from the very person I had been close to connecting with that morning AND she was asking for help. Frustration. Acute, undeniable frustration. I call immediately. A younger lady answers the phone before she does and I am somewhat relieved to hear sounds of friends and family in the background.
Turns out my friend has been thinking of me for weeks as well but she’s one of those positive people who loves to help others and doesn’t like to ask help for herself. It took a couple other people to convince her to contact Me and NOW at the 12th hour before a medical procedure.
I call her.
The synchronicity between us never ceases to amaze me as we soon discovered the similar tract of our thoughts and I convince her that there is no question in my coming out there so expect me at 8:00
I take a moment here to express my gratitude toward my family and friends. (xoxoxo) They don’t even balk at my need to excuse myself early from our gather and send all their best wishes with me as my practitioner and I make the 75 minute trek out to perform an intense energetic balancing session.
Okay, so what if I kept forgetting to email her or even poke her on facebook? So what if I kept being too distracted to call? And so what if I didn’t focus enough to look up her number on Saturday when I was just a couple miles away? Yep, I could have listened to my intuition and planned better to make a longer visit that was more convenient. BUT. But I wouldn’t trade how it did end up happening for the world. I had just gotten back from a get-away that was a powerful energy refill. I came home to a very warm and supporting family which filled me even more. The drive to her home was therapy in itself as the road wound gently though the spring canopies and provided incredible vistas. Very grounding. I felt 200% prepared to listen and feel intuitively what my friend needed. In essence, I planned Not to plan. I knew now that everything would work itself out.
